December 2009
22 posts
I am working hard to get back to where I once was. I don’t know how or if its even worth trying and I am out of excuses. It shouldn’t be this difficult but I guess it wouldn’t be easy when you have shut everyone who knows you, out. How can I explain?
today
I had a pretty good day today- which I think I deserved. Its been a rough week or so but things are looking up. Against all odds we actually got some snow and it’s still coming down. My family and I all played in the snow with our dog, then came inside to a warm fire and some coffee+baileys. I even decorated a gingerbread house with my mom. Today was the first day that actually felt like the...
“To be nobody but yourself in a world that’s doing its best to make you...”
– e e cummings
swarms
Get me to the surface and I’ll be fine. I am just fine. Who knew that’s all it would take for me to sink. Well I could have guessed.
I have no time.
I just want to forget about all my work I should be doing right now. Too many worries and no time to accomplish anything. It’s difficult not to sweat the small things if there are a million of them, on top of the big stuff. All I want to do is read a good book and lay in my new bed. I can’t remember the last book I read, which is very unfortunate.
